Hard Day

I'm having a hard day today. I'm 6dp5dt, which is when I've gotten my BFP with the last two transfers. Though, with my first, it wasn't until 8dp5dt. But, I'm still getting BFNs. I normally wouldn't be worried so much, but I just keep thinking that I should be getting ready to have a baby, not a beta. The mailers for birth announcements aren't helping anything. I was ok until those. It was still kind of an abstract date until they sent me things reminding me that the guys should be holding their baby on Friday, not waiting by the phone to see if we have another chance. Combined with the continued BFNs, it's got me really down.I would like to eat copious amounts of frozen yogurt and cry.